Secrets

While I sat alone in the dark last night and all I could hear was the air that came out from the fan in my room. My heart burden with thoughts that will at any time now explode into what I call uncontrollable pain.

I am living with secrets that only I understand how it eats me inside.  There are times that I wish things were different but I guess this is my life now and I have to deal with it. Having fewer options to choose from and making the best of what you have got. It is not an easy thing to go through; painful moments while those close to you try to make you speak up about them whereas you know that letting the cat out of the bag will only bring more hurt to you and the ones that care about you. The fear of being judged or criticized is just too much to handle and the one person that may not judge you after all is God.

I blame myself sometimes because that which haunts me was brought about by me and me alone and It is my burden, my cross and for the sake of peace and fear of rejection. My secrets are safe with me and me alone.

Mindful Moments

Most of us are of sound mind, but many of us have trouble maintaining a note of harmony and peace. Most of us know how to think, but few of us are able to control our thoughts. We all have the capacity to be creative, to image new ideas, but few of us are able to do it together and co-create in harmony with each other. We could all do with some mental training so that we may use the most powerful energy in the universe, the mind, which is always at our instant disposal. We can begin with mindfulness. It's a simple way to gently help our mind go where it is best to go, do what is the best thing to do. It begins by simply being fully aware of what you are doing. Mostly we are not fully aware, as our minds wander into the past and then into possible futures. We spend most of our time watching others and so rarely fully focus on what we are actually doing ourselves. Next time you sit down to a meal, watch your self. Be aware of only what you are eating. Every time your mind wants to wander, bring it gently and lovingly back to the action and sensation of eating. Then do the same when cleaning, when writing, when working. The more you do it stronger and more focused and more rational will be your concentration, the more natural will be your actions, the more peaceful you will feel, and the more relaxed you will be, no matter what you are doing.

Give Happiness

Great souls take advantage of every moment and every opportunity to give happiness to others through kindness in their thoughts; such souls are willing to overlook weaknesses and mistakes and have the desire to help everyone reach their potential.

Do it Now!

Why do we delay doing what we know we need to do? Is it because we feel we 'have to' to do it? Is it because we cannot clearly see the benefits? Is it because we will need to move some twigs in the nest of our comfort zone? Is it because we fool ourselves into waiting till we feel like doing it? Is it because someone else might be more advantaged than us? Is it because we are just plain lazy? It's probably a bit of all of those. But one thing is for sure - you've already done it in your mind! And as long as there is a gap between your thoughts and your actions then there will be an inner tension which is draining your power - whether you are aware of it or not. Do it, delegate it or dump it!